So, in a similar vein to Conversations In My Head, sometimes my brain will take something and spin it on its head in a delightfully snarky way. Shortly after waking up this morning, it did so with my memory of the turning point in my relationship with E. With one sentence, she went from acquaintance to something more. I believe the exact sentence she uttered was, “Don’t ever fall in love with two people at the same time.”
The pain, of course, comes from everybody involved not being 100% on board with polyamory. When everybody is on board, loving two people at once is awesome! When they aren’t, there’s angst and pain and… well, more issues than normal. Having been there and done that, I could sympathize with her feelings, and I quickly bonded and shared with her pieces of me that I don’t think I’ve ever shared with anybody else before. But here’s how it spun out in my head this morning:
“Never be in love with two people at the same time.”
“I know. It sucks, right?”
“I love you.”
Funny thing is, that is essentially what happened for real (slightly condensed). Never let sense and reason get in the way of the heart… yeah… I’ll file that one away under “what were you thinking?” for future laughs.